Day to Day Awesomeness!

11:49pm: Fuck livejournal i have got nothing to say

6:01pm: Woo
Who just won tickets to see Ben Harper, The black eyed peas, and The Dave Matthews Band? This guy!

3:36am: Gamma Rho Beta
Tonight our frat had its first order of business. We stole a giant sign that says "Kittens". You didn't see anything.

2:18am: I do not know you but what the hell...
Tonight Greg and I picked up twp hitchhikers and they thanked us for the ride with beer. We rock.

5:06am: Dr. Cholo
Dr. Cholo recommends more chronic... Homes.

4:14pm: Hmmmm
Who knew cleaning a trunk out could be so interesting?

4:16pm: All4one
Now a few days ago I was visiting a friends house and I saw the most amazing table. He said the Table belonged to Willaim Ranolph Hearst. Now, Willaim Ranolph Hearst was a big newspaper tycoon...a lot of people say Citizen Kane was based on Hearst (big newspaper tycoon, yellow journalism, acclaimed starlett as the lady involved, humongous castle on a hilltop...)... This hearst table...all i could think about for the first 25 minutes of being around it was 'Great Gatsby' and how the way the table felt and appeared seemed really really close to the way I'd always imagined it....and then WOOMPH! My friend says 'yes, if any of you know the story of The Great Gatsby, the table gatsby used was based on Hearst's new york estate table...'!

Do i intend on having this table as my own? Good god no! But i do intend on creating my own table!




by the way my freind Greg made a list of great songs you should go check them out here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/supergregnumba1/

11:00pm: I think I am getting fat.
What up freaks??

I feel so manly. Saw some basketball tonight and hopefully I can play some football tomorrow. That is what manly men do right? lots of sports.

I am gaining weight like a wacky tree or something. I need to go to the gym again. Then I need to start eating right.

That is all.

12:28am: Slow... Slow... Quick. Quick. Slow...
-Fuck that Last update, I must have been wasted. I can be Happy and an ass at the same time! Hooray!

-I am a registered republican.

-Leaving the state next week.

-Flaming hot munchies are rad.

-Good night

3:58am: I am such an ass. I need to accept being happy, and stop being an ass.

5:39pm: ElimiDATE!
Was totally going to write some long boring entry about my weekend but ElimiDATE is on so fuck that. You get a brief synopsis.

It rocked. (as in it was awesome, not like a stone or something.)

12:55am: Just take your foot in your hand.....
Last year:
Friday- Youth event
Saturday- Volunteer at church
Sunday- Church, study bible and memorize verses

This Year:
Friday- Get fucked up
Saturday- Repeat Friday
Sunday- Sleep till noon and then repeat Saturday

But you know what... Having the best damn time of my life baby!

I may go back to religion someday. It is one of the most interesting things I have ever studied.

But for now, Fuck it!

Name what the subject line is from and you win!

6:05pm: boom
updating to say that I have nothing to say... deal with it!

11:15pm: Good old Jack Handy
"One thing kids like is to be tricked. For instance, I was going to take my little nephew to Disneyland, but instead I drove him to an old burned-out warehouse. "Oh, no," I said, "Disneyland burned down." He cried and cried, but I think that deep down, he thought it was a pretty good joke. I started to drive over to the real Disneyland, but it was getting pretty late."

It is only tuesday and I already can't wait for the weekend.

9:03pm: That Speed bump was Alive!!
I hit a kitty. It made me sad. It ran away. Will it live through the day?


(True Story.)

12:26am: The Time Warp
I have been so happy with myself lately. Especially when I think of the past.

Rewind to about six months ago if I had a problem with someone I would feel the need to call them right away and say That we needed to talk about it and solve the problem. Which was dumb because every little thing could potentially be a greater problem and I felt it needed to be talked about.

Fast forward back to now and I have changed completely. I have many problems with people I hang out with but do not feel the need to bring up. I now feel that if it does not work itself out soon I will talk to them about it but there is no urgency about it. At first I thought I was avoiding conflict, but I came to the realization that I just do not care all that much. If something does become a bigger issue and I bring it up and the person has a problem with it them fuck them.

Go back to six months ago and I remember hating being alone. I could not stand it. I always had to be around people. But also I would hate to be with people at the same time because I would get so damn nervous. It put me in a predicament of just hating life.

Back to the present and I love life. I could not be happier now. I am really enjoying spending time with people as opposed to before when I would shake out of fear. and I love my alone time. I just had an amazing walk on the beach yesterday and loved every damn second of it.

Back again about six months and I had a stupid summer job at jamba juice that was going nowhere and I got paid minimum wage.

Now I am in an amazing office job where they basically pay me to fuck around on the Internet. Also if I decide to take this job for all it is worth there is tons of potential to grow.

One more time lets go back to look at my woman situation. Basically the ladies were not a factor in my life for any reason but one. No relationship was wanted I my part. If I was with a girl it was with no real intent to ever see her again (it sounds awful, I know).

Now I am actually interested in trying to meet a girl without the intention of just hooking up. But with the intention of possibly going at least on a date with her. With even the possibility of being exclusive with a girl (for a while at least). This in no way means I am thinking about marriage though (Fuck that noise) so do not get the wring idea.

I lied and we are going back again. It is almost over, just sit tight. I used to not give a crap about my body of the way I looked.

Now I am starting up a gym routine and eating healthy. Looking into braces to fix the mess that is my mouth. And growing a beard for fun (that last one does not really help anything).

We are done now so go ahead and leave a comment about something. No need to be sneaky and hide the fact that you read this. I am sure you have something to say so go ahead and say it.

Peace out baby.

11:11am: I have come to the conclusion that without a doubt I am in fact super awesome.

7:32pm: The People Vs Allan (Buster)
So I went to court today. It was so ridiculously intimidating. The Judge had such a booming voice. Over all it is experience I never want to go through again. In the end it went my way though. A $650 fine got bumped down to 39 hours of community service which is spectacular.

With that comes even better news though. Within the month I will be out of debt. That is unless something goes wrong (*Knock Knock* [that was me knocking on wood]). I have come close before but somehow managed to get back into debt one way or another. So it will be a joyous occasion to finally be debt free after three years.

With this though I need to start thinking about what I want to do with my life.

Well, one thing I know for sure is that I got a second job. I will be working as an extra when I have the time. It should be neat.

Um not much else I want to talk about with the Internet pubic so I will say bye now. Bye.

11:20pm: Anti Bush or Pro Kerry
I just had some crazy shit go down.

So I was sitting here, about to write some stuff about the upcoming election and then...all of a sudden...


BLAMO!!!!!!!!!!!!

VOMITING ENSUES!!!!!

My stomach kind of was hurting but it did not seem all that bad. Boy was I wrong. I was sitting on the floor of my bathroom for like 15 min. before the vomiting slowed down.

I thought oh crap I need some Pepto-Bismol or something.

So I go to my car dressing in basketball shorts and an old T-shirt and go to save-on, where you can count on people who care right??? WRONG! They had just closed and I had to find another option. I give a friend of mine who lives near by a call to see if they know a place near by that is open. They do not answer.

So I start to drive a little ways to the 7-11 when I realized very soon that I was not done vomiting. so I pull over and spit up a little and then get back in my car.

Get to 7-11 and am there for a little ask for the Pepto-Bismal from behind the counter and then I buy it. I was about to leave but then thought I should get some 7up or something that might help my tummy feel better.

so I am looking for the drink when.... KABOOM!!! I fucking pass out. shit. I woke up with Vomit all over me and the people in the store are freaking out. They have already called the ambulance.

The ambulance get there I tell them I will be fine and was just tired and had some bad chicken (not the case, I have no idea what s wrong with me at this point).

So I drive home and realize I was about to write an entry so decided to tell my story. I am off to bed now.

11:33pm: A Moo for all to see
I feel like I should update. It has been sometime and it is my birthday. But the thing is I do not really have all that much to say, not that I ever do though. I suppose I should talk about my birthday. I did not do anything that I wanted to do today. I kind of had a lack of initiative, everything I wanted to do was either not possible or I would have had to do alone which is no fun. I did go get burritos with seb though. then after that I took some alone time and treated myself to a book and a CD. But I would have done both of those things anyway.

But even though my birthday sucked I did have an awesome weekend leading up to my birthday. Friday I worked then went out to dinner. that night I went with Greg and Sean up to USC and that was kind of fun. Then Saturday I rested up from the night before then went to see improv shmimprov. after that I went to this guy Erik's birthday party and had a blast. I got a birthday song from this girl jen, hypnotized, drunk, and a nice change of pace from the people I have been hanging out with.

End Transmission!

12:28am: Fatty Mc Fat Fat
Hey all of you all out in Live Journal Land. I have not updated in what feels like forever, but it has only been two weeks. But in those two weeks so little has happened it is amazing, but it was pretty "chill." Well, I suppose there are a few Highlights.

The first is me doing Extra work on a TV pilot. It is for a show that is called clubhouse which is about baseball. I was at dodger stadium for about six hours sitting with a "chill" crowd cheering and booing. it was neat because I have never been there before. But one of the better parts was meeting who I met. First I said hi to the little boy who played Peter pan in the new Peter pan movie. Which I did not care to much about considering I did not even recognize the boy when I said hello. Next I met Dean Cane, and had a decent little 3 minute conversation with him. All I could think about was how cool I thought he was as superman. But then, to make things even better, I got to sit and talk with Christopher Lloyd which was radical. I mean I have only seen some of his stuff but I have seen enough to know that he is awesome. So over all being an extra rocked.

Another thing that has been fairly cool has been hanging out with some new and old people. I have made an effort to call a few friends that I have not talked to in a while and have been spending some time with them. But I have also been spending some time with some new folks. The most Interesting (to say the least) new person I have been hanging out with has been this dude Miles. He is living where Jonathan used to live and we have been spending some time hanging out. He has helped to broaden my knowledge of a fabulous band called They Might be Giants and opened me up to some spectacular films such as The Royal Tenenbaums and some very funny short films. I should also mention that he is very "chill"

On some other fronts, work is going very well. I just kind of realized that I am really getting the hang of what I do there. See my boos lady just hired another person and they kept asking me all these questions about our insurance and our computer system and to my surprise I was able to answer a lot of the questions without hesitation. This summer I want to go to work full time and move back out of the parents house. Should be fun if I can find some "chill" roommates.

But to counter those Highlights there has been some pretty "rank" stuff that went down in the past two weeks also.

One being school. Oh how I loath it. I am starting to remember how much I disliked High school. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that the school I am going to is basically just an extension of high school. I truly hope that a real college is not as "rank" as this community college. It is basically all of the people I disliked in high school but with the ability to smoke on campus*. It is High school but without all of the interesting of intelligent people. I mean they might be there but Lord knows I have not found them in any of my classes. It has been nice to run into some familiar faces though (Props to Shannon Mac for being the Person I run into the most that I don't despise). I wish I saw them more often.

*I say these things only about the people in my classes. I do Know some great people that go there but I never see them.

One other thing that has been a complete downer in the past few weeks has been my weight. I have been eating like a pig and it is showing which is "rank." I would say that in about three or so weeks I have gained at least ten pounds. It is ridiculous. It seems that for some reason the fat Kid I used to be wants to come out again. Not to say I am mister thin now but I was a fairly fat kid growing up until about sixth grade when I lost a lot of weight. I keep telling myself that this thing I am eating will be the last then I will go on a diet but That has yet to actually pan out. Hopefully I will build up some will power and start to eat right again and maybe even get into shape.

Well, I think that is enough Journal action for you today so be on your merry way and on your way out leave a comment or something.

~Allan

PS Thanks to all of those who agree with me about not being Stupid!

PSS "chill" and "rank" are the words of the day.




Oh wait I guess I was wrong this entry is not over. I almost forgot the Quote. I stopped doing the quotes do to laziness but I a going to try and do it again. Hear is this entry's Quote- "TELL IT TO MY DICK" -Greg Comitz

11:05pm: I am no Brittany Murphy
I wonder how many people think I am dumb. I know that I am not the smartest person out there, but I do not think I am dumb. I can only imagine that a lot of people think that I am dumb though. My good friends even think I am dumb, what is to stop everyone else. At first I thought I was looking into something to much, but I was told that I was stupid by a friend of mine. That is kind of a forward statement. To be fair they did not just come out and call me an idiot. We were having a conversation about someone helping me out and they said they say it as they dumb teaching the dumber. They even took the time to think of an analogy, they said it was like the movie Clueless. They compared themselves to Paul Rudds Character who watches Alicia Silverstones Character teach Brittany Murphy's Character.


I suppose I may just be overreacting. Actually I am not because I am not really reacting at all just venting to this silly journal. I should just try and not think about it. But I know it is going to effect they way I act around my friends.

12:15am: Camping was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. It was actually rather pleasant and felt good to get away. I am going to break it down for you day by day. For me the day begins and ends when I sleep. so here we go.

FRIDAY:
-Worked. Work has been going really well lately though. I am actually starting to enjoy my job.
-Snow Supplies. I went to Greg's then we went to look for some snow gear. all we ended up getting were gloves for Greg from 7-11 that he lost.
-Traffic. Went up to Myka's but ran into about an hours worth of traffic. Picked Myka's up Then made our way up to Heather's.
-Food. Got about $60 worth of snacks for the weekend. Then got some Carl's Jr.
-Heather's. Ate and watched some celebrity Poker.
-Punk Show. Went up to Simi Valley to see Ryan's band Homesick Abortions play. It was a great show at a really nice venue. The only problem was that they did not have the best sound so you could not really hear the vocals.
-Pack. Came back to the South bay so Ryan, Greg and I could pack.
-Wait. We waited maybe 2 hours for Ryan to get back to the South bay. Was not that bad though. Had a chance to have some interesting conversations with Myka.
-Road. We left for Big Bear. I sat in front so Myka could sleep. Once we got to the 38 I was going to switch so Myka could navigate. All I had to do was stay awake and help direct Ryan to the 38. Well, I fucked it up and fell asleep.
-Palm Springs. Ryan woke me up and asked if we passed some casino when we went up to the snow the week before. I said I think and then he said we are about to get to Palm Springs. I thought that maybe we had to pass Palm Springs then go up the mountain but we played it safe and woke up Myka who told us to turn around.
-Snow. We found our way to the mountain after our little detour and had to put on some snow chains. I got out and watched, Ryan and Greg did a good job.
-Cabin. We got to the cabin and there were about ten of us there and not to long after we arrived myself and a few others fell asleep.

SATURDAY:
-Relocate. Woke up and saw that people were awake so went upstairs and found a bed to continue to sleep in.
-Sick. A sick Myka Woke me up and told me to move so she could sleep. Poor Girl looked all sorts of unhealthy.
-Behind. Greg and I decided to stay behind while others went on a hike. Ryan and Myka also stayed behind but were sleeping. Greg and I used this opportunity to shower.
-Walk. Greg and I took a walk down to the General store so Greg could make a phone call. We did not get any cell phone service. I realized I need to get into shape, the short walk kind of tired me out, but it may have had to do with the altitude also.
-Smores. We sat around the fireplace and made smores. They were freaking amazing. Much better than what I thought they would be.
-Nap. Everyone went sledding but Ryan, Zantha, Greg, and myself decided a nap would be better.
-Pasta. Was hungry and wanted more than chips so I needed to make something. It was my first venture into making something other than toast on my own. Well, I did it and did a good job. The past two months of watching Jonathan cook has paid off.
-Kings. Everyone but me (Trying to cook and not a big drinker) played a Drinking game called kings. Was fun to watch.
-Fun. Participated in the next group game, I Never/I have. Was a good time and a nice way to end the night.
-Sleep. Went to sleep in an actual bed with Greg and Myka.

SUNDAY:
-Leave. Woke up and everyone was ready to go. Got ready in a hurry and left.
-Food. Had A chicken sandwich from Jack in the Box. Got a ridiculously large drink too. I think it was like 40 oz, all I wanted was like 20 oz.
-Games. Played car games on the way home. Some really fun Guessing games.
-Shower. Got Home and showered.


That was about it I am leaving out some stuff I am sure but oh well I did my best for the state of sleepiness I am in. One thing that I realized is a group dynamic that I am not sure I will enjoy for the next few months. When I decide that I do not want to do something such as drink or smoke I may not have the escape of someone else who does not do these things. It is not that bad though, to look on the bright side it could be worse.

Have a nice week everyone.

12:45pm: Camping
I need to work on my perspective. I am going up to big bear with some people this weekend and I just don't think it will turn out well. I do not even have reasoning to think it will not be a good time, just a feeling. I noticed that I have been getting a lot of these feelings over the past few days which is unfortunate. I am happy that I have been noticing it though. At least I am aware of the problem and not completely ignorant. After I say certain thing's I recognize that it should not have been said and sounds very negative. Hopefully I will start catching these things before I actually say them. I think if I do not try and fix this problem soon it will hinder one of my goals. Oh by the way I have some goals now, The one I am talking about is to keep steady friends for at least a year. I am only two months in and am already starting to see cracks in these friendships due to my actions. I should probably just try and stop talking to them though. The way I see it, If I am not making an effort I will not be bothering them. But the downside to that is I may come off looking like a jerk or people may not make an effort to be with me. Which would end in me just sitting around doing nothing again.

This is the type of attitude I am trying to avoid. I don't even think I should be thinking about this type of stuff but I cant seem to just stop. I think I need to try harder to find a hobby. or something to occupy my time. Right now all I do is think, talk myself down, and think of ways I might be doing something to bother someone. I am thinking of using my time for music and writing but it is hard when I am just doing it for myself. I do not see any of the stuff I write ever really being performed. But really that should not be why I am writing it. It would just be easier to write if I knew it was for something. Almost tricking myself into doing it.

Sigh ... this update was not supposed to go like this at all. It was supposed to be about how much fun this weekend is going to be. Even though I do not feel that would be the case I was just going to write about how it will hopefully be better that I expect. Now it has become this odd entry about my attitude. Oh well.

I do think last night had quite a bit to do with my attitude about this trip though. It was a weird night. Nothing really happened, it was just an odd feeling.

I am going to have some self control this weekend and not drink. I do not need to, and with my "alcoholic" past I really should not be. I am just going to take the weekend and try to reflect or something.

Have a great weekend everyone.

12:28am: Blessing in Disguise
Well, I suppose it is time to update.

Snow is awesome!! I went to the snow for the first time this past Sunday and it was amazing. Myka, Jonathan, Miles, and myself went up to snow valley and played for a few hours in the snow. We tried to sled but did not do a very good job at it. The snow falling was beautiful and the fresh snow was just fun to play in. Even though it was freezing and I did get wet it was well worth the fun. The only bad part was after we walked down from where we were playing Jonathan realized he did not have his keys to his car and we had to go look for them. Well, I just sat by the car because I was having trouble breathing so Jonathan told me to wait for them to get back. But they found the keys fairly quickly and we left.

After that I went to an awesome Chinese place with the people I went to the snow with and Jonathan's Brother and His Brother's wife. I was able to try fish for the first time where it was not in stick form. That was good.

My good friend Jonathan left Wednesday morning for Florida and in a week he will be leaving from there to Israel. He will be gone for like four months. It was kind of strange having him go. I was pretty sad that the guy was going but now that I think about it; it is probably a good thing that he is gone. Even though it would have been cool if he did not go it if all for the better. When Jonathan was around he kind of brought up all of these feeling that I never wanted to have. He helped me to deal with a lot of my problems rather than just let me bottle up my feelings. But now that he is gone I will not have anyone to question why I am acting a certain way and offer to talk about it. I will have to deal with things on my own and go talk to someone if I feel the need. I do not have someone that will offer. So if I am having a problem I am going to have to seek help. At least I hope that is what will happen. Part of me is afraid that I will just go back to bottling up my feelings and not really talking about them until Jonathan comes back or someone else comes along that will do what he did. But right now all I can do is hope for the best. If something does come up I will have to go out and find someone though. I am not sure if anyone in my current circle of friends is as open to helping my as Jonathan was.

I am done with this update. Now that I have a Internet connection at home I should be able to update more often so you should look forward to that. Bye.

PS if any of you get a chance I am trying to update my contacts list for my address book. So if you could just email me at allanglover@hotmail.com that would be fantastic.